My promise of an 'Elastic' luv

Relationships that work are of two kinds: one which are effortless & u urself keep falling in it & 2nd where u put in ur efforts 2 sustain it. First one is more by fate whereas 2nd one is more of choice. Whether a relationship is through fate or through choice, relationships which matter are the relationships which lasts!!

For something to last it got to be stable. Stability is a by product of our confidence in what comes to our plate.. be it fate or choice. For us humans, stability isn't static, rather its characterized by elasticity. There will be external factors which will distort our stability from time to time but if we hold onto elasticity we can always bounce back to our original self & revive our relationship.. & make it work.. n make it last.. n thats what matters.

I dont promise u starlit nights, but hand in hand we'll walk in the dark. I dont promise u sunshine days, but u'll find me by ur side every morning when u open ur eyes. I dont promise u no misunderstandings, but always we'll talk. I dont promise u grand showcase of luv, but always I'll care. I dont promise u solution to every problem, but always I'll lend u my shoulder to fall back on & ear to pour ur heart out. I dont promise u forever laughter, but always I'll reach out to wipe ur tears. I dont promise u same thrill everytime, but together we'll dive into any new adventure every given opportunity. I dont promise u anything, but always I'll try.

Yes, my luv for U is 'elastic'. I'll fight with u, I'll laugh with u, I'll irritate u, I'll get irritated by u, I'll enjoy ur silly talk n then I'll smile at ur idiocity, I'll share my inhibitions n I would like to comfort u in sharing yours, I want to stretch myself to every extreme of life with u n then still come back to u  & say , "handle with care because my luv for u is elastic".. its gonna be there.. either in shape or deformed.. but its gonna stay.. because u matter to me.

Luv u elastically,
Megha.

I love “IMPERFECT”

Thankfully there r a few advantages of over thinking too; else I wud have always been running in negative balance only. :P

 

As I was watching dis song on tv @ 12 midnyt from the movie ‘zindagi na milegi dobara’ starring Hrithik, Abhay n Farhan, I happen to notice Hrithik n Abhay dancing adjacent to each other.. n somehow it just hits ma senses that I admire Abhay’s dancing more than Hrithik’s.. Abhay is so not perfect.. his dancing is so raw. I din relish Hrithik’s perfect dancing moves as much as l appreciated the way Abhay enjoyed his imperfect moves. I think I prefer it dat way only.. raw n imperfect.. in lyf too..

 

Last month I got dis tattoo done on ma ryt ankle which flaunts the symbol of success in Chinese.. ever since d day dis tattoo came into ma lyf, I’ve been hitting everything but success.. to an extent dat I started believing in d superstition of inauspicious things having adverse effect on people’s lyf. 1 person actually suggested me to get rid of it since success should not be kept at foot n it’s a bad sign (will bring negativity in lyf).. but den afterthoughts made me realise, given an option I’ll chose not to otherwise.. simply because wen I got dis done, my interpretation of it was logical enough.. that it will lead me (help me walk) towards success.. it may not be d wisest of interpretations.. it myt even be an imperfect decision.. but now dat I’ve already chosen my stance.. I better stick by it.. come to think of it, normally every1 enjoys perfection.. for a change one shud try enjoying their imperfection too.. hence, I decide to enjoy my imperfection n make people wonder (even jealous of the fact that) how impeccably I’m doing the job..

 

The attitude wid which 1 carries himself/herself is more important than their weaknesses.. I’ve seen people who r ashamed of their scars. They try to hide it n pretend to people what they are not. Once a frnd had confided in me a dark secret of her lyf.. even after trying not 2 judge her I often used 2 end up judging her for her actions, but ever since I got 2 know of her scars I felt so proud of her for surviving all this. Scars r not the end result of a failure.. it’s a reminder of one’s courage, ability to take risk n survive it all through. Scars make u imperfect. But imperfect is beautiful too. Since beauty lies in d eyes of the beholder, to those who r way creative, scars will appear to be the beauty spot on their personality.

 

Imagine how dull wud it be if we woke up in d morning & find all dew drops organized in a routined manner on the leaves, if those waves came only till a certain point on the sea shore n if our hair never got entangles wen d wind blew against our faces?? Seriously, wat adds to the fun part amidst the monotony of lyf is this unsorted, impulse, random n imperfect ways of being.. mystery over history is always more alluring.

 

Few say luv is imp in lyf..  I think receiving luv is only a bonus.. (watching/reading a gud luv story helps too :P).. but its equally imp to fall in luv wid urself in the first place.. loving one’s own imperfections wid pride.. n appreciating others’ imperfections with respect.. Lyf will be more than perfect wen 2 imperfect people try 2 fit in their assorted pieces of puzzle together n attempt 2 build something out of the box that astonishes the world & amuses the wise, ain’t it?

 

I’m glad I’m imperfect (for I’ve scope of inventiveness) n I’m proud 2 pronounce I’m totally in luv wid it. Pick ur call!!

Awakening

Only when u hit the rock bottom, can u bounce back.. finally.. after the long fall.. now has arrived :)

21 days theory does work. when u r stuck & cant take a decision n if nothing comes to ur gut feel, wait for 21 days. these 21 days might be too vulnerable for u. u might end up doing things u wouldn't have expected urself to do.. things that keep breaking u every single day. but wen u r totally broken u'll emerge a new.. u know y?? because u cant die until u stop breathing. u may try or even wish that u die & it all ends.. but it wont just happen. u'll have to live through it all. & wen u find urself totally broken.. when ur weak identity is ruined into pieces, the only option left to u is to build  a new 1.. given an option u always wanna choose the best for urself.. don't u? & there u make urself stand once again.

Getting back ur new (old) identity is so satisfying.. it actually is.. because u don't have to pretend to smile anymore.. u smile because u r happy with ur decisions.. with ur choices.. because u discover u r the master of ur fate.. the magician of ur show.. the actor of ur play & the write of ur story!!


I've learnt the biggest loss in life isn't losing money fame or loved ones.. its loosing ur confidence.. the power to control ur own mind.. I'm the same today as I was yesterday.. same weakness same strengths.. same losses same gains.. nothing has changed except for 1 thing.. I've stopped fucking my mind & I've stopped allowing people to fuck my mind.. this is who i'm & this is how its supposed to be.. no arguments, no discussions.. deal sealed!

Candid Confessions!!

I'm SHE... She who refuses to lower her standards just becoz u refuse to raise urs.. She who has reached a point ín her life where she realizes that she is strong enough to deal wid all d emergencies n pointless dramas ín her lyf all alone.. She who doesn't mind a long journey; provided things r moving in some direction.. Not stuck not dragging.. I'm she who finds d solution to all her miseries ín notes of music.. I'm she who follows her heart.. Not forgetting to take her head along.. I'm she who would help u anyway only if u had asked her for help..

She who can't just pretend.. She who luvs to cry but wont embarrass herself infront of others.. She who wud be up midnyt to pen down her thoughts.. Who believes that lyf isn't meant to feel good or bad; its just meant to make us feel.. Who wud still complain about wat has she done to deserve d bad she has been feeling.. Who wud then create a wallpaper for her laptop which says "I Deserve Better".. Who wud keep fighting with or without strength but to come to terms wid things she feels she doesn't deserve..

I'm SHE n SHE is not perfect, I'm she n all she needs is luv, care n respect, I'm she n she is a ship wandering ín d vast ocean expecting to touch d harbor one day with as many pearls n some sand too (but not any lump of sand ín disguise of a pearl)..

I'm she, whose frndz if get a chance to go thru this prose, wud say.. Tell me something New....

Hai junoon

Hai junoon....
Haar k bhi muskarane ka
Har baar chattan se takrane ka
Gir k bhi himaat ladkhadane ka
Barhte kadmon ko hausla manzil pane ka...

Hai junoon...
Mehfuz fizaon k bahar dum bharne ka
Khud ki galtiyon se mili seekh se ladne ka
Yaadon k bhawar mein do pal jeene ka
Phir unhi yaadon ki khashti ko dubone ka...

Hai junoon...
Maut se pehle kuch kar guzarne ka
Badi na sahi choti khushiyon se kisika daaman bharne ka
Kisi bandish ki parwah na karne ka
Apni dhun mein zindagi sawarne ka...

Hai junoon...
Badalte halaton k saath kadam milake chalne ka
Apne gumaan ko kabhi na dena phisalne ka
Zindagi k zidd se pehle apni zidd ko pakadne ka
Sher k aage sawa sher banne ka...

Hai junoon...
Roothe khwabon ko manane ka
Behti aandhiyon se nazre milane ka
Doobte suraj ko raasta dikhane ka
Aasmaan mein lakiron ko sajane ka...

Hai junoon dil ki us goonj ka
Hai junoon us goong mein chipi sailaab ka
Hai junoon us sailaab ki aawaaz ka
Hai junoon us aawaaz k aaghaaz ka!!!

Alvida

Kuch log zindagi mein umeed banke aate hain,
Aur aankhon se pani ban ke beh jate hain,
Jab aandhi ko aana hi hota hai,
To hum gharonde q banate hain???


Aaj phir se ek baar kuch to choota hai,
Aaj phir se ek baar dil zara toota hai,
Wo kehte hain tumhe aadat nahi padi ab tak,
Aaj phir se ek baar humne khud ko sameta hai...


Saath nibhane k liye bahane ki zaroorat nahi padti,
Bahane ki zaroorat to saath chodne walo ko padti hai
Bahane ki zaroorat to kisiko manane k liye bhi nahi padti,
Bahane ki zaroorat to rishta todne walon ko padti hai...


Wo kehte hain zindagi rahi to phir milenge,
Zindagi to reh hi jati hai, beet jaate hain to wo pal,
Jinn palon mein humein aaj ko sawaarna tha,
Apne magroori mein unhe hi rondh k diye chal...


Jo hoke bhi na ho sake,
Jo jaake bhi na ja sake,
Kehne aur sunne ki khel itni si thi,
Magar wo samjha k bhi na samjha sake...

Speaks Genie in a Bottle

When u start taking your life’s advises from a bottle U know u’ve hit d rock bottom..

Life for me was never about being right, beautiful or perfect.. it was always about fucking up n dealing with it.. I’m afraid I’m losing d zest these days. I just keep thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring. There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go  but I don't really think it's gonna happen given the circumstances. I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere they don’t wish or live somewhere they don't want to. But I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see n feel everything I want 2 feel. I feel stuck. I’ve come to believe that my dreams are too unrealistic. I wanted to be forever young n chirpy.. kip risking.. stay true n follow my heart. I wanted 2 cherish my yesterday n build dreams for my future. But I feel lost NOW.

Is it true? Some songs do not rhythm, some stories do not have happy ending, some feelings just say goodbye n sometimes u never get a next try. Voices in my head tell me, it is. I might appear weak as I say all dis. But when I say I wanna be strong, I dont just wanna show I'm, I wanna KNOW I'm. I want to accept my situation n then have d courage to change it. I’ve been trying in different possible ways to make it work for me but I just dont see any success. It all seems like a bad dream. As if when I wake up everything will be back in place. It wont be stoic. Luck will shine from somewhere. I dont want to come to terms with this life but somehow I feel so helpless that I can do nothing more than venting few words on this paper.

Its time to smell some coffee beans & bring some fresh aroma to the monotony of life. Such is life, we keep waiting for d autumn to pass only to realize spring has camouflaged itself for long. I badly need to know so. & this time when I open the bottle I expect the Genie to do that miracle for me.. come, hold my hand & take me to where I belong.. 

Peace be showered.. Amen!

Naarazgiyan

Is khamoshi ko alfaaz de do

Silwat pade aarzuon ko naya aagaaz de do

Dastak na sahi aahatein hi sahi

Kismat hamari bhi hai iska kuch to ehsaas de do...

Dekho ye chanchal purwaiya phir is aur aa gayi

Beete lamho ke patte aaj ke zameen pe cha gayi

Bulbule se tairne lage fizayon mein kuch armaan

Haath badhaya paane ko to haqeeqat phir khudko dohra gayi...

Kuch geet lafzon tak aane mein ghabraate hain

Ye din bhi beet jayenge tanhayi mein hum khudko samjhaate hain

Dhoondne jo nikle wajah zindagi ki bewafai ka

Wafa k naam pe kiye sitam se hum sehem jaate hain...

Pankh hote to hum bhi chal padte naya kharonda basane

Jheel hote to hum bhi nikal padte nayi lehron se takrane

Kaanto se mohabbat ki saza se hi mohabbat ho gayi

Phoolon se mohabbat hoti to hum bhi ek gulsitan banate.........................!!!

Pee-K-Boo-In2-D-Zoo.... (of thots :P)

Not may would watch a casual movie & try to come up with this many conclusions drawn from it. I think God has blessed me with some amazing (useless) ability to ponder...

I happened to watch this movie called 'Inkaar' which is supposed to be based on office politics but given my extraordinary skills, I achieve to relate it to human tendencies in general. So, for those who care to attend to my crap here is what I construe from it:

Life's unmatched paradox - As u grow u end up becoming that one thing u least wanted to become

Fear of loosing what u've now actually refrains u from expressing what u want for future

There r times when u'll choose to be arrogant not because u want to demean someone else but because u want to use it as a tool to safeguard ur own honor simply as a precaution

Experience by now has taught u that running away wont help. So either out of arrogance or what-so-ever;  u prepare yourself to face/handle/deal with things which scares u most just to prove to yourself that u r strong enough not

to give a shit about it

Sahi kaha hai kisi ne.. 1 dard ki dawa dusra dard hi hota hai... lol... its been extremely important to flirt with someone not so important just to make someone important not so important in your life

Over 2u Once Again...........................!!

 

Once again d dawn breaks in leaving behind the dust coated leaves. The leaves that manuscripts my journey so far.. In hindsight I kept gazing at them, smiling at my own helplessness & beseeching God—Its over to u once again— new year, new chapter but same old plot.. hold up.. let risking be the victor this trail.

 

We all have travelled such paths that seem to cross us once again when we least expect it to. And when it does, we try to recollect all the learning so far from old experiences & act wiser this time. Alas, we forget, some1 has strange new twists served at our table every single time. I must say ‘He’ is a great chef undoubtedly.

 

I feel we all are just runners in a relay race. We take the baton of our life & run as fast as we can to get to our ideal ‘happy & prosperous’ finishing line. But we forget to mark that its not just a race it’s a RELAY race. Many a times we simply need to pass on the baton to a trustworthy counterpart & have faith that we definitely will successfully reach our ideal finishing line on time.

 

I too hadn’t been any exemption to this million multitude.. running hard.. taking no rest.. aspiring to emerge a winner. There have been incidents when I got lost in d maze, there have been incidents when the prism didn’t refract the light at the right angle, there have been incidents when I felt the air I was breathing had too much of carbon choking me in.. But I kept crawling.. With d confidence to reach the finish line all alone.. I never considered sitting back for a while, passing on the baton to a fit contender & seeing how things take shape, the way it’s meant to be. Sometimes having a partner to cover for u is all we need & it doesn’t mean we are losing. And as they say it, life is a vicious circle so when we have relaxed for a while & ready to take on d charge once again, after the temporary break, rejuvenating our mind & soul with newly gained strength, jump back, take d charge & steer the wheel. Basically, ideally keep relaying as a viable option always [P.S. the best partner to choose is ‘Him’ who channelizes destiny as well]

 

So here I’m, sitting, thinking, gathering, analysing my past 1 year of deeds.. How good, how bad, how smart, how dumb.. & what wisdom to take out from it.. how best not to fall in those pits all over again, how best to conserve those energies & put it to better use this time, how to act more mature how to escape poor choices ever again.. ‘How’ is the one question I ask myself today & ‘how’ is the 1 question I fail to find the solution to once again.. & thus with a sarcastic smile on my face, I come to u & say to u.. “It’s over to u over again”............ it’s over to u once again!