When u start taking your life’s advises from
a bottle U know u’ve hit d rock bottom..
Life for me was never about being
right, beautiful or perfect.. it was always about fucking up n dealing with
it.. I’m afraid I’m losing d zest these days. I just keep thinking about how
much I don't want my life to be boring. There is so much I want to do and so
many places I want to go but I don't really think it's gonna happen given
the circumstances. I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere
they don’t wish or live somewhere they don't want to. But I feel like I'm gonna
live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see n feel
everything I want 2 feel. I feel stuck. I’ve come to believe that my dreams are too unrealistic. I wanted to be
forever young n chirpy.. kip risking.. stay true n follow my heart. I wanted 2 cherish
my yesterday n build dreams for my future. But I feel lost NOW.
Is it true? Some songs do not rhythm,
some stories do not have happy ending, some feelings just say goodbye n
sometimes u never get a next try. Voices in my head tell me, it is. I might
appear weak as I say all dis. But when I say I wanna be strong, I dont just
wanna show I'm, I wanna KNOW I'm. I want to accept my situation n then have d
courage to change it. I’ve been trying in different possible ways to make it
work for me but I just dont see any success. It all seems like a bad dream. As
if when I wake up everything will be back in place. It wont be stoic. Luck will
shine from somewhere. I dont want to come to terms with this life but somehow I
feel so helpless that I can do nothing more than venting few words on this
paper.
Its time to smell some coffee beans
& bring some fresh aroma to the monotony of life. Such is life, we keep
waiting for d autumn to pass only to realize spring has camouflaged itself for
long. I badly need to know so. & this time when I open the bottle I expect
the Genie to do that miracle for me.. come, hold my hand & take me to where
I belong..
Peace be showered.. Amen!
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