The 'once upon a tym story' dat wasnt suppose 2 affect

Every1 has dat 'once upon a tym' story.. I too have few.. d funda is 2 talk abt it wen u r sure its mention can only bring u smiles of stupidity n not otherwise.. (until den dun talk, work on levelling d roads 2a peaceful self)

U meet sm1 new, u talk 2 dem once.. u talk 2 dem twice, u discover d wavelength matchin n u sense a scope of frndshp.. rule 1 of frndshp.. for dat  matter any relationship.. be transparent.. just be wat u r.. let d person accept u dat way.. n since dese rules r Ankita invented rules obviously who else gonna follow dem close.. (lol).. so here I start “being myself”.. sharing my small, big, silly, not so silly, old, new, applied, implied, explicit, implicit stories.. (dats how u discover about ppl, ryt)

Jus lyk rest of d stories dis too was supposed to start wid line no. 1 n end in line no. 10.. inviting a comment in lyn no. 11 wch was expected be a smiley or a lol or few words said in good faith.. n den u jump 2d next topic wch paves way for sharing other such interesting stories.. but dat did not happen dis tym (as per my sweet intuition)

I started d story wid lyn no. 1 n I ended d story in lyn no. 10 but d comment in lyn no. 11 wasn’t a smiley or a lol.. it was “I feel sorry fr u”.. n dose 5 words said in gud faith fall upon as 100 pound rock on ma image.. breaking it into minuscule pieces of self destruction... (shit! Shit!! wat d hell did I do.. I was supposed 2 enhance d facets of ma personality by sharing dese stories n here I jus ruined it bad.. painted it “pity me” in blocks)..

No onus on d listener.. I must have sounded it lyk 1.. ppl see wat u make dem see (vry few r dat wise except if dey are ur close 1s) n I must have portrayed it lyk dat 2 invite such a comment... gathering d ruins of ma shattered image I try to jump 2 another topic but at d back of ma head beats d doldrums of a bad idea..

But since any bad idea equals new lesson in ma dictionary I had 2 do a post-mortem of d situation later on.. ( a part of wch resulted in the birth of this blog post J).  So, digging it deep, my intellect points out dat d crux of d problem isnt d way I said d story dat resulted in d conclusion (“ I feel srry fr u”) its WHY I chose 2 say d story d way I said it... if I can drill down d answer to this WHY I can solve dis maze.. n it wasn’t a vry tough 1.. why I chose 2 say it dat way is becoz I’m still not ready to talk about it (wen u r not ready, u’ll nvr know HOW to).. not able to handle it on ma plate.. its still hot.. unsettled.. some strings of dis story are still wrongly attached to ma heart.. I CAN NVR PLAY (WID) IT MELODIOUSLY UNLESS DESE WRONG STRINGS R FIXED ..

So, 1^st BE READY... U MAY NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH TYM IT MAY TAKE.. BT TAKE UR TYM.. no1 will know about it anyway.. but wen u chose 2 make dem know, let dem know it as an additional dimension 2 ur personality wch u CONQUERED well n not as something wch attracts pity.. WEN U R READY U’LL KNOW ‘HOW’ N VISE-VERSA.. (I’ve learnt, dese fundas r also vry situation centric.. sm1 said “jump off n u’ll discover how 2 fly” but in this case u need 2  discover b4 u jump).. n thus my tym re-starts rather stretches.. to make peace wid dis story..

Aside, 2d potential frnd, ofcoz it’s lil 2 do wid wat u thot of me den but it’s more 2 do wid WHY I’ve been affected at all.. n d same inquisitiveness led 2d seed of this introspection J

Lastly, as I always say.. all stories r meant 2 help sm1 smwhr who myt jus need dis 1 pull to bring him/her back from d edge.. hope ma story 2 finds such resorts J

Tk Cr, Stay Blessed!!